Tomorrow will be the day I let my little boy take a bus.
To most, this is not much of a leap or even a thought....
but to me...
It is the biggest event of my life.
I have managed to let him go to school, though it was hard, by convincing myself that I am 1 block away if he needs me. I have stocked him, made sure I was there 10 minutes early for drop-off and pick up, and I have counted the seconds until the bell rings every evening...just to see his smile.
Alone in the scary world, on a bus without ME....I can't breathe!
The anxiety and thoughts of 'what if' will not leave me.
I know he needs to grow, I guess all children do.
If I had known that motherhood would be this difficult, I surely would not have had two.
Until tomorrow I wait anxiously.
Counting the seconds,
Until my baby can tell me of all the wonderful things he did on his own...without ME.
Perhaps it will get easier, or in my case, even harder...
But I guess that is what happens, when little people grow.
**To my sons, who are my life, my loves, my entire being. I wish I could stop the clocks and keep you in my arms forever. Have fun on your trip Cookie, I can't wait for you to give me a big hug when you return <3