Most people who know me and my family think we are NUTS! I am not afraid to admit it, but we are. We love whole-heartedly, and devote our entire beings to one another. This is sometimes not always the way to go. You see, I am finding that more and more these days people are showing themselves to the world one way, and actually living another--the illusion. When I had my first born, who I call 'Cookie,' I endlessly tried to 'fit in' and keep up with the world around me. In the town where I live people are ALWAYS dressed to perfection, wealthy and appearing to be living the 'dream.' Picture hollywood, only a lot smaller and not as talented. Don't get me wrong, there are a lot of good people here and these people are probably nice people....but this is what people see from the outside looking in.
I later realized that with the dependence of family members, nannies and the lack of employment this is an easy task. I decided to SCREW fitting in and START living and doing what I wanted to do with my family. For people that know me they know I am not a completely sane person either. I have beliefs and I hold on to them very strongly.
- I get annoyed by the lack of parental involvement with children nowadays
- I am a paranoid parent in terms of 'letting go' (a.k.a 'bubble mama')
- I am obsessed with children's fashion, food, toys....anything child-related really
- I hate characters on clothing and despise subjecting my children to my own choice movies, t.v shows, characters and opinions.
- I am a hands-on mama- try to do EVERYTHING possible with and for my children- even if it means sleeping on the floor.
- I believe in letting my children express themselves freely
- I think rules should be rules and everyone has them
....sounds crazy doesn't it? But, this is an honest look at me.
Meet 'J' - he's a laid back, quiet guy who won't admit it, but has always had a crush on me ;) I met him years before we started dating and had immense hatred for him....until one day....well, the rest is history! Here we are 7 years later, bickering constantly (well, mostly I bicker), with 2 kids and a dog....who would have thought?
They look innocent don't they? Like I said, its all an 'illusion,' looks can be deceiving. Although they are CRAZY and keep me sleep-deprived, mis-matched and always on the run, these guys are my life. 'Cookie' is a super-charged ball of energy, inquisitive, and bright beyond his years --we often refer to him as the polish kid in the family (we still can't figure out the blonde hair, blue eye thing). Then there is 'Neigh' a boy who started off quiet, sweet and innocent and is now joining forces with his older brother both intellectually and annoyingly ;) My days and nights are often with them, laughing, dancing, dressing-up, playing barbies (who says boys don't play with barbies?) and baking...something has to keep them occupied right? Since, 'J' is hardly ever home (works a lot) I have devoted my time completely to them....my world for the next 19 years (probably longer).
So there you have it....we are all a little whacked in our own quirky ways. Over the next few posts you will realize that we are all on different than one another, and maybe, just maybe I am the craziest of all!